well...

so its been a while, but thats just how things go. i havent been able to put words to my life over the past few months. it happens. i also have been trying to get a handle on myself seeing as every time i go back to the states i go through a crazy weird funky transition period that leaves me utterly existentially exhausted for about twice the amount of time i spend there. but here i am, ready and rarin to go. 

2009 ended beautifully. an amazingly beautiful and long overdue reunion in chitown and then madison, a very jewish christmas which is always my favorite, a refresher of family time that was amazingly honest and change-embracing, and a hilariously unpredictable new years that left me feeling all warm and fuzzy inside and ended in a (not very well) renovated warehouse that now poses as a "pod" apartment. 

i have started 2010 not really realizing its 2010 and liking it that way. im not good at new years resolutions and therefore dont make them, but since ive gotten back to colombia ive hit the ground running and indulging in every minute of it. ive started training in my new job that will bring me the pueblos of antioquia every morning, working with kindergarden to 6th graders under the support of an awesome team. i went to my first yoga class in medellin, and even though i wholeheartedly did not enjoy the yoga nor the attitude of the people who worked there, it was all but productive because it has now stimulated my yoga practice at home, leaving me feeling accomplished and self-reliant. i have added another person to my shit list (i dont ever really get offended by people commenting on my american-ness, but this kid got me to the point where when he talks to me i just stare him down and answer him kurtly), which isnt really an accomplishment but something that shows me that even a year in a half in south american cant get rid of my sydney-ness. i met the architect for the newest stations of the metro, who has taken to my persistence and has shown me all his plans for the latest metro stations and has promised me a pre-experience of the new metrocable in santa elena before it is a launched this monday (oh god i hope!). 

and next week i start the grad program in interior architecture. 

so my only resolution that has now been my resolution for a while is to savor the now. the now is all that really exists, because the past has gone and the future is unwritten, rendering them both irrelevant. 

and so here i am.