starting over

today i feel like im sort of starting over. mariana left, and she took julian, my other closest friend with her. see i have this tendency to connect people, and it may turn out to be a deep profound friendship or a whirlwind romance (in this case the latter). now that seems awesome, and in a way it is, but the downside in this case specifically is that they turned out to have such a strong connection to each other that now im left in the dust, alone and family-less. im extremely happy and excited to see what comes from their lives (whether they stay together or decide to go their separate ways), but my ego who wants company and doesnt like being abandoned is screaming at me telling me im stupid and now im left alone, with the responsibility to start over. 

but guess what? the ego isnt taking over this time. im an extremely blessed person for having the opportunity to create a family here in medellin, a family consisting of a brazilian, a paisa and a street cat. i will always and forever love these people for who they helped me to become, and for continuously teaching me how to love with my entirety, not just seek ego satisfaction.

mari, juli y gus: los llevo en mi corazon para siempre.