the good and the bad

there are always good days and bad days, good weeks and bad weeks, etc. this just happens to be a not so good week. this weekend was supposed to be great and fun and relaxing but in fact it was just the opposite. and of course as we all know when it rains it pours, and of course my mind chooses this week to feel really out of touch with people from home...like i have no idea whats going on in my friends' and family's lives and they have no idea whats been going on in mine and that disconnect is just so depressing...i miss just shooting the shit with julie and having rachel tell me a story about the trivial hilarity that occurs in her life...i miss my having incredibly dumb and incredibly inspiring conversations with rama and kelly all within the same 5 minutes...i miss elise and rdtizzle and the comfort i feel when im with them...i miss my cornell aiesecos a ridiculous amount...the fighting, the making up, the hilarity that ensues when all our differing personalities are placed together in one room with a hookah and buanra...

i love my friends here in ecuador tho...the problem i dont have many in quito so i have to wait until the weekends to see them. i just miss comfort and the independence i have in the states sometimes...also the family situation doesnt make things any better...im just glad im only living in the house for about 8 more days in total when you count in mexico, semana santa and peru...

speaking of mexico i am beyond excited! hopefully seeing familiar us aiesecos and meeting some amazing international ones will pull me out of my funk...plus the csr focus couldnt hurt!

ok im done now...i just needed to get this out in the open so that people could know where i am and how even tho i am having an amazing experience this is still life...it still has its ups and downs.