a much-needed mental poop.

im at a breaking point. my academic, social, aiesec, work, applying-for-jobs-to-ensure-i-can-eat-in-5-months-and-enjoy-what-i-do, and familial lives are all so saturated at this point i can barely breathe. for the past week my life has been consumed by the following:
-consoling friends (i seem to know the "right thing to say" even tho im talking out of my ass half the time),
-planning nebeast roks sessions (which are going to be baller so get excited...23 cornellians baby :)),
-drawing chairs and attempting (yet failing) to make 3d models of them from cardboard,
-making a kick-ass and never-before-seen coverletter (which is WAY harder than doing a normal coverletter...believe you me),
-going to the cornell police station (im not that badass...i just have to redesign the dispatch area for a class),
-dealing with family issues,
-getting in that "last lunch" with necessary people before graduating and never seeing them again,
-planning graduation shizzle (aka im fucked if it rains),

and all i want to do is stare at the wall and think about nothing, but unfortunately (as i have learned from my meditation class) that shit dont work with me.

ok im done venting now.