cant do the same old song and dance no more.

for my entire life i have been able to exist in an organized chaos, where i seemingly [and for the most part actually] have my shit together while living in emotional and physical chaos. i have been able to make progress in life while still maintaining an existence where i make few decisions, do minimal physically exertive activity, tie up very few loose ends (instead i let them fizzle out) and clean my room approximately twice a semester.

unfortunately my chaos aint so organized no more. i think its time to try something different.